Wednesday, 31 December 2014

Ringing in the New Year!


HAPPY LAST DAY OF 2014!!!

New Year's Eve is always one of the hardest days for me! I always get really down on this day. Ringing in another year of being alone, it's not easy. This year has been one of the worst years of my life and I've had some bad ones. But it just felt like this year, anytime I was up, I got knocked down. I don't want to go into all the details of why this year was so hard.

Here's what I hope for in 2015!

On Jan 12th of this upcoming year will be my last day of working at Tim Hortons! I cannot tell you what a relief I already feel at saying that! While I'll miss working with my amazing co-workers the most, I'm happy to be moving forward. My work become a main source of my stress and anxiety! I started to feel a sense of dread every morning that I had to go to work, to the point of going into near panic every morning for four days straight.

So my plan for the new year is to take a few weeks to myself before I go off and hand out resumes at any place that I can work with books! The one thing that makes me happy despite everything is reading. Which is why I want to become a Librarian. So I'm hoping in September to start online courses to become a Library Technician.

 I also would really love to get my license! I came so close this year, but I wasn't confident enough, my driving instructor said, so that made me lose my motive. Driving gives me anxiety because I'm afraid of getting into an accident. It's just that I don't have quick reflexes, and I'm afraid when the time comes that I'll just freeze and that will be it. I know everyone has said that instinct takes over. But like my driver instructor said, I'm not confident enough, and he was right! So I really need to work on that this year.

And finally, my love life which has been nonexistent my whole life. I've never been in a relationship, so I have no idea what to do or even how to find love. There have been times in my life that I could've been a relationship with some pretty great guys, but I let my fear and insecurities win over every single time! I need to figure that out, and soon! I'm going to be turning 27 in June and the older I get, the more I don't feel like I can ever find love and that I'll just turn into a crazy cat lady!

Anyways, those are some of the things that I plan to work on in the upcoming year! What are some of your New Year's resolutions?

On that note, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Michelle

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