Saturday, 31 December 2016

Goodbye 2016, Hello 2017


When I think about this past year, I don't have the fondest memories if I'm being honest. This was a tough year to get through, and I'm happy to bid it farewell.

I started off the year with a literal panic attack, and without going into the details, I got really upset with myself. I allowed my social anxiety to win again for the countless time. What could have been something great amounted to nothing because I ran away scared yet again. Everything I wanted was right there, and I allowed my insecurities and anxiety to make me retreat into myself, and run and hide. After that I went into the biggest depression span I've ever experienced in my life. Instead of it lasting a few days or a few weeks, it lasted months! That was months of having no energy or motivation to do anything. I got into a routine of work and sleep. It wasn't living, just going through the motions.

The worst month was June, which should have been the best month since that's my birthday month and summer is just starting to really come into full swing then. But everything just came to a head that month, and it was awful. After that month ended, I decided that enough was enough and I needed to do something! So I decided to take a chance and look into seeing if my favourite store, Indigo, was hiring. It was all right place, at right time and from there I started the process of getting out of the toxic work life that was Tim Hortons, and try for something better. I had a horrible interview experience, where I spent the majority of the time resisting the urge to bolt from the room because I was on the verge of having a panic attack. When it was over, I was convinced that I didn't get the job, but I didn't let it break me, which I felt was progress for me. Little did I know I actually got the job!!! HAPPIEST MOMENT OF MY LIFE! I'm not lying when I say that getting this job was life saving for me. It changed my life, and I'm so grateful and happy. I'm so much happier and I'm starting to feel like I can do this, I can achieve more goals if I just take a chance and try!

For 2017, my productive goal is to get my driver's license! It's time, and I just don't want to take the bus anymore, haha!! But my main goal is to work on my social anxiety and my well-being. I'm writing a blog post about Social Anxiety and how crippling it is. I feel like if I write it out and express it, then it helps a little to lift that weight off if I share what it is that I go through on a daily basis, to give everyone who cares to know what my life is like and how it's been since I was 13. But enough about that, you'll see that soon enough in the next few days. Mainly, I just want to try to learn to not sweat the small stuff!

So that's been my year, and my plans for the new year! What are your plans and resolutions?

I hope everyone has a Happy New Year!! Hope 2017 is good to you!

1 comment:

  1. Michelle

    I hope 2017 is going to be all you hope for and more!

    - Wendy

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